Overlook

Overlook

My inmost thoughts are obscure
When a man speak to me
I'm astound for he knows me
My intuition, thoughts could be

He was someone I admire
Someone who has a great sense of humor
Someone who has a unique spirit
And belief

Someone who has self-reliance
Trustworthy and full of dreams he is
And yet he told me he wants to change
He wants diversion to something new... a reborn spirit

Spirit that has spontaneity
Like a wild galliard
In everything he desire
He change, all of him

Patience he will learn
Before he lose himself
And may lead to oblivion
Of some few good things in life

His changes can be a fool
To himself, hurt and pain
Plain things really change
But some will never be the same again

His evanescence began in parted ways
I want to breath, deep
And those airs mend me to realization...
That I was alone.
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This poem was written on May 5, 2003. I write when I felt that I have to change some traits in my personality. I want to change at that time. But there are drawbacks on changing myself.

I haven't posting entries in my blog lately. I think its a month I've been absent here in blogging because last month I have been busy looking for a job. I've graduated last March and I started searching for a job this late of June until now. And now its October already and Christmas is coming! I can't afford having without money for my own to spend for the coming holiday and without a job! So I keep myself busy on job hunting. 'Wish me luck! And feel free to comment about my poem entry today.

Waking up at Night to Feel the Air of Midnight Summer

Waking up at Night to Feel the Air of Midnight Summer

I sit by the window
Feeling cold and blue
Knowing that I can't be with you
Only breeze of emptiness blow

All I see is starless sky
And hopeless dreams to get on by
Lost in my soul taking me over
Pieces of you in this midnight summer

I am a soliloquy in silence
Reminiscing the moments have passed
See reflections of you, yet in absence
I know things where should be placed

Moments with you
Ease my loneliness in blue
Memories that clamoring my thought
As rhapsodic silence is also fraught

Oh, when better days will come to start?
Longing and waiting, yet this night begin to over
But even were miles apart
I'll stay forever.
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I wrote this poem on my birthday March 15, 2003. Obviously, I wrote this poem a night of summer, since March is already the start of summer. It's all about missing my friends thinking that they might not greet me on my upcoming birthday or come for a house party but if you'll look at another perspective... it giving a message to someone very special to you that you don't want to let go. I hope you like this poem entry hope I got a good feedback you. Enjoy reading!

Sukob din ang kasal mo!

Sukob din ang kasal mo!

My blog entry title today is very familiar and catchy to everyone especially to moviegoers of this year's phenomenal movie - Sukob. This is one of the famous line of the movie that everyone who watched will probably never forget that movie because of this line. Sukob is a Filipino wedding superstition that a sibling must not go under marriage under the same year or a series of unfortunate events will happen to the couples. The other belief - "Sukob sa Patay" is that if a family relative died in a year, a marriage of a relative must not take place or a series of bad lucks will happen.

Best Wishes... Death Wishes...

I myself was impressed after watching the movie, it was a great horror movie that will surely give you the creeps and suspense you're looking for in a horror/suspense movie. It is in the same level of hit horror movies like "The Grudge" and "The Ring." Sukob is currently the top grosser movie of the year and the top grosser movie in the whole history of Philippine Cinema. It also got a worldwide premiere. Wow! It only means that the movie has surpassed other past Filipino movies that had become top grosser even from the 70's to 80's and 90's! That was really amazing. And I think that no movie can equaled or surpass Sukob's status as the top grosser in the whole history of Philippine Cinema. If there is, it will be a hard-time to equaled it. Unless Kris Aquino and Claudine Baretto will do it again. With Chito Roño again directing another hit movie. Maja Salvador also gave a nuance acting performance who has a vital role in story of Sukob. She was nonetheless who said that famous line in the movie in a monstrous and threatening voice.

Just Married... Just Burried...

I myself don't believe in Sukob before but now I believe. But not in the superstition itself, I believe that marriage in siblings should really take one year apart bec. It is good to remember one beautiful event in one year by one sibling in the family and the other one the nest year. Its like they own each year's memorable event. In "Sukob sa Patay", it really should postpone a marriage when someone in the family died in a year because it is not a good year to remember sometime in the future when something sad happen then at the same time at that year a happy event to remember. A one year after is also a time to let the grief subside. 'Hope you watch the movie because it is really great, the story is excellent and its really worth watching it... kasal ang sumpa...

Repost: Echoes of Caressing Cry

Echoes of Caressing Cry

A river of emotion within me flows
A burst of affection slowly grows
While I ponder
Dreamy in a wonder

My thoughts were in delight
But in my heart, there is firelight
Its warm is conquering my body in uproar
A warm I never felt before

Though I deny
Blue-sky is in my eye
Felicity is swimming in my vein
And bliss to this feelings play in my brain

I conceal it every bit
Hide it
But its voice reaches my surface
To see this through my face

I try to cover this emotion
So, I cast it away in my notion
Yet, it whispers in my ear
Conveying a voluptuous music from balladeer

I thought it would sweep
If I had one sleep
But I was wrong in haste
For even sleep I cannot taste

In every move, I can feel the passion
The strong feeling runs in my blood and wants my submission
It succumbs my whole being
Now, I cannot resist it anymore this feeling

Though I bury it
Though I conceal it
I cannot conquer it anymore
This feeling puts me in torment more and more

I close my eyes
In the silence of my heart and mind it unties
There is a cry
A cry burdens my heart and mind to be crucify

I cannot subdue it anymore
It's you my heart cries for more
But who will knew it out of blue?
When is every act I do there is no echo that I love you. **************************************

This is a repost poem; I've already had published it here in my blog a year ago. I consider "Echoes of Caressing Cry" as one of the best poem I wrote about love. When I first write it in December 1, 2003, all think about is that this is a love poem but as I read on it can be a poem for courting or give on a love letter to woo someone. In the end it turned out one of the best - an "obra". Be the judge. But for me this poem is one of the best love poems I write since the day I begin loving to write.

Echoes of Caressing Cry tells what is happening to someone who is succumb by love and keeps on hiding that love. No matter how many times you try to hide it, it will burden your feelings as your heart cries for that love. It won't go away. And though you conceal it, you find it hard to make her/him see that love for it is only you who tries to conceal that echo of I love you.

Closure

Closure

I'm currently reading a book of Dr. Margie Holmes entitled "Wild Wicked Wonderful" which also defines my personality... And as I read her compilation of advice column I encounter a striking interesting term "closure" in one of her case articles. Margie Holmes defines closure as a psychologist concept often refers to when dealing with people who are in pain over their relationship. She stressed that closure is very important because one of us can never truly move on to other relationships and other endeavors unless we have this. Closure is achieved when there is a clear end to things. It is achieved when you have said what you wanted to say, when you have done what you wanted to get done, when you have the answers to the questions you wanted to be answered. Dr. Holmes said that not everyone can have complete closure at all time when relationships end, but there are some relationships that have more closure than others. In our life, especially in our relationships we encounter the need for "closure" especially when we know that it is time to move on. I find it practical to have closure because it is not only applicable to our special loved one but also to our friends. This concept was an answer to the "things" that keeps on bothering my mind, that's why whenever I've confronted with an issue and then the aftermath... I always have this feeling that I have to do this for me to move on in my life. And that's what I do - I close everything. It becomes an answer for everybody who wants to move on, but the best thing I learn here is that you need to close issues in your life (esp. the dark parts) first before moving on with your life. After closure... keep moving.

Glance

Glance

A glimpse of you
In the look of love
My heart was in sweet response
My mind was in dream beyond

In just looking at you
The blow of air stops
The time of space slows
And only the fire of emotion flows

In time to ponder
All I can think about is you
All my dreams in nights was you
All started in just a glance of you

A glance ito your eyes
And I see... love
Circling around the blackness of your pupil in my fantasy
How I wish more of you I could see

I want to look in your eyes longer
Longer, so that its beauty stays in my mind
And understand the depth of its emotion
I want to look at you longer than devotion

A glance into your face
And I see more of your loveliness
How I wish I could lay my lips there
To kiss the smoothness of your pale pelt than only to lay a stare

I want to caress your face
I desire to feel its loveliness
But I also long to you to cradle my face
So I can kiss your palm in my sweet pace

I'm longing to held your hand than just a glimpse
And press it to feel your warmth
I want to touch your lips
So in my dreams I could kiss those red lips

I'm longing to let you know my passionate love
Than to bridge it through glances
I want to hug you in my arms of true
So you may feel how much love I pour in you

This is what lies in my desiring reverie
A fantasy of longing for you more than just a look
How I desire this is a reality of romance
So that I won't be dreaming from a mere glance.
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Going back to the old days... I started to posting poems again which I've written. I can't remember since when I last posted my poem in my blog... I think it was a year ago since my last post. Anyway, here we go again back in posting poems. I hope you like it and please do leave a comment about this poem I wrote. Honestly, I haven't write poems lately.... I don't know why... not inspired? Maybe... I did not write any poem since 2005 until to this date. But I'm planning to write again this year... hopefully I get to write again.

Anyway, about the poem "Glance", I wrote this poem last June 4, 2004... fresh from rest after summer class. This poem is about "secret love" because at that time I have a crush classmate in my summer class that seems to be near but yet still "very far away". But I just realized that this poem can be use in courting... as I just read it again while typing this poem. Well, that is the power of poetry. Please do leave a comment about your interpretation of the poem after reading. Have a nice surfing day!