New Year

New Year

watching the dark grey sky
an early nightshade
keeps me solely disturb
only thoughts of you

you want to start all over again
think it work this time
or would it really work?
but don't end it up in regrets

even now, faraway from fun
those things that fade away
a moment of time with you
coming back to me

so frustrated I was
so tired I was
of waiting
on my years

false hope in despair
came witholding in my tears
i'm so scared to be
just to say you, goodbye

one of us thinking
should get sleep
pushing thought of you away
but i can't do it

i don't want to end up this feeling
realize it was all gone
since you went away
a year ago.
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Hear yeah! hear yeah! It's already 2005! And for the first post of this year is my poem entitled "New Year" perfect for the new year, but its not all about the new year or new year celebration. It is a poem with a touch of love in frustration. Its about someone you love that went away then comes back to start it all over again and 'think it would work this time but confusion comes along leading you to the point that your confusion brought you if to accept him/her or not and to the point that you're afraid to admit that you're feelings are already gone since he/she went away.
Inspired from Sugababes song, same title "New Year".

Forever

Forever

I watch the day end
See after the day long
People made the world proud of
Events that rattle the world

I see myself in despair
But I erased it in my mind
I have to be brave
Fame is what I need

Time goes by
But I stand still
So for eternity
The meant I destined to be

I stepped thgrough time
For a limitless at all times
This is my desdtiny because ...
I am forever.
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This poem is supposed to be more polished... I want a more polished version of this poem bcoz I feel that it is nonsense and more ideas could add up here. Timely written few days before New Year, I really wanted to this as a stand that I myself is "forever" even as the year ends, no matter what happens and time passes by.
As 2005 approaches, this could be my last post for this year , the next would be next year! New Year wishes? Of course to be more mature person and Christ-centered life and faith (I hope so...) and of course another prosperous year of 2005, more get together with friends and family, triumph in my studies and a lot more. New Year's resolution... a lot... maybe again to be a more mature person like my resolution last year and change some "dislikes" in my personality (I hope so...)
2004 is a fantastic year, I have a lot of things accomplish, speaking of accomplishments - my documentation of Athens 2004 Olympics is already been bookbind, I hope my fan fiction of Sailor Moon would be finished soon before the end this year. There are so many things happened and so many things also changed. But I'm thankful that everything goes well & smooth this year (though there are hardtimes w/c is never without) I had a fantastic year of 2004 and 'hope in 2005 I had another fantastic year. Happy New Year everyone!

Special Kind of Love

Special Kind of Love

I never had this feeling inside
Last long and never died
I know I never thought
This is the one I sought

Taking my breath away is the feeling
In a world of silver lining
With you, their and my friends
A lovely day as it ends

Happiness never surpass that I felt
In my heart was an eternal wealth
The laughter we share there is always
As all of us has own special ways

Full of life at all
Even I fall
Together we sail the life
As if no more night

The world we all belong
Like melody and sound to a song
A part of life as miracle
As I live in this forever circle.
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From the title itself you would thought this as a love poem but its all about friendship... and its one of the most important things in this world. I wrote this last December 26, 2001 with inspirations from friendship with my friends and best memories with them. Friendship with my friends is one of the best gift I've received this Christmas. Merry Christmas!

Echoes of Caressing Cry

Echoes of Caressing Cry

A river of emotion within me flows
A burst of affection slowly grows
While I ponder
Dreamy in a wonder

My thoughts were in delight
But in my heart, there is firelight
Its warm is conquering my body in uproar
A warm I never felt before

Though I deny
Blue-sky is in my eye
Felicity is swimming in my vein
And bliss to this feelings play in my brain

I conceal it every bit
Hide it
But its voice reaches my surface
To see this through my face

I try to cover this emotion
So, I cast it away in my notion
Yet, it whispers in my ear
Conveying a voluptuous music from balladeer

I thought it would sweep
If I had one sleep
But I was wrong in haste
For even sleep I cannot taste

In every move, I can feel the passion
The strong feeling runs in my blood and wants my submission
It succumbs my whole being
Now, I cannot resist it anymore this feeling

Though I bury it
Though I conceal it
I cannot conquer it anymore
This feeling puts me in torment more and more

I close my eyes
In the silence of my heart and mind it unties
There is a cry
A cry burdens my heart and mind to be crucify

I cannot subdue it anymore
It’s you my heart cries for more
But who will knew it out of blue?
When is every act I do there is no echo that I love you.
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Christmas is coming soon, have you already bought your gifts and made a shopping spree? Well, its been a long time since my last post, well here is poem that I'm surely everyone would love... its about secret love or courting someone loved... you decide. I wrote this poem last December 1, 2003, I hope you like. Merry Christmas!

Poignant

Poignant

Leave me alone
I don't want to moan
To feel it again to myself
Self-destruct? I didn't wish that
I defy that in my way
Away, from all torment and quarrels

Not even milestone in life
Consequence..............
Irritation...................
All failed, for it is suffering sharp
Once to feel it will never gone
Not quick...................
Emotions sadden and stress
Had not all released from
Deep imprint in mine

Impossible to resist
As grief start to undercover
In this situation
Vibrations are break circuit
Torn apart inside of me
Sharp and sudden it is
But still it painfully affecting the feeling
in blue..................
lost........................

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Poignant is about painful feelings kept inside that hurt affects your whole personality. Though you want it to be lost, in blue, the pain isn't fading away. I wrote it last February 8, 2001. Comments and reactions are welcomed.

The Graveyard

The Graveyard

I find solace among the stones
Where silence is shattering
Where wind is whispering
And all were cold

I find solitude among the stones
And there are withered leaves brushes more
And wall that were cold
Reveals the still loneliness is bold

I find courage among the stones
Where fear is gone
Which mold me stronger in time
Now my thoughts are sublime

I find bliss among the stones
There is no gloomy day
They never speak secrets I conceal
And speak only laughter to send my cries away

I find comfort among the tones
Amidst in seclusion and loneliness, I never felt sorrow
I never felt agony anymore
The pain that tore upon me were no more

I find silence among the stones
In their silence there is no rejection
In their silence they ease my disturb emotion
In their silence they console me

I find death among the stones
For there is silence in their cold
Taking away all my pain and suffering
And all were cold.
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It's been a long while since my last post... a lot things happen. First, sem break arrived so I got a lot of relax and rest. Then I became no. 1 again in my history subject... for the second time I retain and consistent topnotcher in history subject. I'm so happy coz I thought I'm not gonna make it but everything turn out well, I'm so happy. Time passes by then sembreak was over... second sem arrived, about my olympic documentary it is about to be finish. I'm just finishing the last papers and hope soon this week I may able to book-bind it. Well, school started again and Halloween was over... so new adjustment has to happen. About "The Graveyard" I wrote this in Noverber 3, 2003, perfect theme for this month's first post. Read it closely if the speaker is someone who is lonely, a ghost or dead... you decide.